Its been three years

Its been three years. I’ve been involved in different ministries before but I have never been as immersed as I am right now in a church ministry.

Its been three years…

Its been three years since I started serving in the singles ministry of CCF Alabang.

I remember the first year we re-launched the singles ministry and gave it the name B1G South. Why B1G South? Well, we just wanted to align with the name of the singles ministry in CCF Center, which was B1G, and we just want to be distinguished as the B1G ministry in the South, therefore the name B1G South.

The first year was exciting! There were too many things to expect and everyone looked hopeful about what the Lord can do. It was a time where everyone was on fire to serve. But as I have realized through the past three years, it’s not how you start – it’s how to you end and remain faithful.

True enough as the months and years passed by, slowly you’ll observe who are really those who are passionate about serving the Lord and continuing to run despite so many oppositions.

There were leaders who have said their goodbyes and I will forever be grateful for their heart of service. But there are those who have never said their goodbyes and just left. It’s sad. I hope everyone can give the same passion in serving God just like how it was when the ministry was starting.

crossroadBut the effect of time, failures, frustrations, disappointments, and a lot of other things can really leave a leader tired and worn out. At that time where he or she is at the crossroads of life, a decision should be made. Do you stay or do you go? Do you quit or do you continue to hope and run the marathon? By God’s grace, for the past three years I have chosen to continue to run, and have been trying to run well.

Was there a time where I wanted to throw the towel and quit? I would be lying if I said no. But what made me continue? What made me not quit? Honestly, I could not think of one reason alone, because there’s too many.

I love God too much to quit and exit saying “I quit because I don’t trust You, Lord.” I love the people that God has called me to serve that I cannot abandon my post until such time that I am assigned to another. I don’t want to look back and think what could have been. I want to look back and say I gave it my all – I tried to run the race as faithfully as I can. I want to continue putting my hope in God that I know he will always be faithful and true. I know my God is greater when I am not.

Its been three years…

I haven’t been perfect and there were times I haven’t been faithful to what the Lord wants me to do. But one thing will always remain the same. Throughout those years, the Lord has always been faithful.

My discipler asked us to write our faith monuments. Those times where you saw the Lord’s faithfulness in your life. As flawed individuals, we are very prone to forget. We can easily forget who the Lord is, and what he has done. And these faith monuments should be a reminder to you. When things get rough and you feel like quitting – don’t. Remember who the Lord is, He is faithful. Remember what the Lord has done, He has always been faithful.

This is one of my faith monuments. Throughout those three years, the Lord has been faithful. When he called me to start leading the ministry, I felt so inadequate. I had so many questions in my mind. I had so many fears inside.

I felt like Moses, saying to God “Me, Lord? Are you serious?” “I’m not even capable of preaching yet.” “I don’t know if I am eloquent enough.”

Exodus 4:10 – Then Moses said to the Lord, “Please, Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither recently nor in time past, nor since You have spoken to Your servant; for I am slow of speech and slow of tongue.”

 

I felt like Jeremiah, saying to the Lord “I’m so young Lord, do you really want me to lead people who might be older than me”

Jeremiah 1:6-7 – 6 Then I said, “Alas, Lord God! Behold, I do not know how to speak, because I am a youth.” 7 But the Lord said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am a youth,’ because everywhere I send you, you shall go, and all that I command you, you shall speak.

 

But I felt like Isaiah, saying to God “Here I am. Send me!

There was a conflict inside me, I was scared and felt so inadequate but I felt that this is really what he wants for me. The moment that I reject it and run away from it, I know dissatisfaction will just hunt me. So I said yes to the call and even went full-time after a couple of months.

Its been a year, since I started leading the B1GSouth ministry. Its been three years, since I served in this ministry. It has only been a year since I took over the role as the over all leader and being a leader is not an easy role. But to see lives get changed, all for the glory of God is priceless.

Its been three years…

I will forever be grateful to the one who has called me despite my unworthiness. I will forever serve the One who gave it all. I will forever sing praises to His name; giving Him always the glory He deserves.

Happy third anniversary B1G South. All glory to God alone!

B1G South 3rd Anniv

 

My 2015 Pre-birthday Treat

Azure Urban ResortThis is one of those moments wherein I really thank God that He has blessed me with someone who just wants to take care of me. My birthday is coming soon and as a birthday treat, my girlfriend planned a day wherein we would do all the things that I’ve been wanting to do for the longest time. She knows that I want to go on a vacation and just relax. She knows that if I have the liberty of time and freedom from some responsibilities, then I would wish to take a vacation outside the country or even just out of town, perhaps go to the beach. But because there are still so many things that I have to do especially for work, she just decided to take me to Azure, which is the only urban beach resort in the city, for a day of rest and relaxation.

First item on our itinerary was to have breakfast at the 3rd floor Al Fresco open area. We bought food in Mcdo and ate it in the venue while enjoying the quiet and cool atmosphere.

Azure Al Fresco Area

Second item on the list was to workout in the gym area. Some people don’t like working out, but for me, it’s usually a time where I get to unwind. We were there for around two hours.

Azure Gym

Third item was to have lunch in the same area where we had our breakfast, but this time we had some food delivered from Subway.

Subway Sandwiches

Fourth item was supposed to be a 3pm SPA massage appointment, but since we still had around an hour to spare, we decided to hit the beach and experience the blue lagoon in the middle of the resort.

Azure Beach Area

Just 10 minutes before our 3pm appointment, we went to the second floor of Paris Beach Club already and had our massage separately. We both had the hot stone massage which was the masseuse recommendation since it is said to take away any stress in your body.

Azure SPA

I’m writing this entry to just really appreciate my girlfriend. Who would have thought that we can do all of those things in a single day, in one venue. She was the one who planned everything & I thank God for her. I thank God that He has given me someone who is really sweet and thoughtful. The entire day she just wanted me to unwind, enjoy every moment, and not think about anything. I am truly blessed to have her in my life.

What if

Before going to church my mom asked this question, “Marc, magilang taon ka na?” If you would translate it in English, it’s my mom asking how old I will be in anticipation of my birthday in the next couple of days. As of the moment, I can still confidently answer that question since I’m technically still in my late 20s. Hehe. I’ll leave it you, my dear readers, to guess how old I am.

But what really hit me hard was not a reflection of how old I will be in the next couple of days, but what my mom asked after. She asked me where do I guess I will be if I haven’t gone full-time in the ministry and have continued in my corporate job before.

That made me think.

Looking back in my corporate stint, I know by this time I should have risen above the corporate ladder since I became a manager at a young age. In every promotion that I got, I knew that God’s hand was in my life and career. I enjoyed what I was doing, but despite the position and a good salary to enjoy, I know deep within my heart this is not what I’m supposed to do.

And so, that started our discussion in the car about the “what ifs” in life. Actually it was just dad who did most of the talking about his “what ifs”.

The truth is this. Haven’t we all at one point in our lives thought about our “what ifs”?

  • What if I took that other job?
  • What if I didn’t break up with my boyfriend or girlfriend?
  • What if I took the opportunity to work outside of the Philippines?
  • What if I decided to take the other path instead?

There are two views in your “what ifs.” It can be a look into the future. For example, what if I decide to transfer work – what salary would I get, what will be my work schedule, who will be my friends, etc. It’s thinking about the possibilities with a future decision or direction in your life.

What IfBut the “what ifs” that I’m pertaining is not looking at the future. It’s looking at the past. And it’s answering this general question, that you can play in your mind using different situations – “what if I decided differently?” For example, where would I be right now if I didn’t breakup with my girlfriend before? Or where would I be right now if I stayed in my previous company and never transferred work? What if I decided differently?

We’re consistently faced with a decision in life. When you wake up, you are already facing a decision. What will you do? Will you brush your teeth? Will you eat first? Or get back to sleep?

Life is full of decisions.

But there are few major decisions, that we really need to take the time to think about. Decisions that will alter the course of our life.

We’re coming from a new year where we might be facing major decisions in life. In reality, we really do not know what will happen. Life is so full of uncertainties. We will face lots of decisions in life.

But the important thing is this – love the Lord and keep His commandments. One truth will always remain certain – God is faithful to those who love Him and keep His commandments

Deuteronomy 7:9 – Know therefore that the Lord your God, He is God, the faithful God, who keeps His covenant and His lovingkindness to a thousandth generation with those who love Him and keep His commandments;

That’s why even though I know I gave up a lot to pursue serving Him and His people, and there’s so much uncertainty in life, I know He will always be faithful. I can always try to play the “what if” game, but I know as well that in all those years He has remained true in guiding me where I should be. All the while I thought I was really built for the corporate world, but there was a bigger plan for me that I’m still venturing through.

We can come in (?) 2015 with an expectant heart. That no matter the situation. No matter the time. No matter the day. No matter the year. God is faithful.

Our God will never change. He will always be true to who He is and it says in Psalms 86:15

“But you, O Lord, are a God  merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness.”

What is vital is that you know who your God is. That He is faithful. He is merciful and gracious. He is slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness.

May this new year be a great journey with you and the Lord. I pray that we would continue to walk humbly in His ways, love Him dearly and obey His commandments. I would love to hear how you would want this new year to unfold. Maybe you can please leave a comment below.

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