How I felt after my first speaking engagement for a company

It was almost a week ago since I spoke in a company for the first time. I remember getting a text a month ago that someone was interested in our love, sex and dating series for their office. It was exciting for me since I have always desired to start a corporate ministry. It was something that I envisioned B1G South would actively do as a movement.

I was nervous at the thought though that speaking in a company is totally a different audience than the people I usually speak to during our single’s service. I had questions in mind. How would I go with my message? How will my listeners react? Will they like me? Do I need to be as innocent as a dove and as wise as a serpent? How do I share the gospel?

While I was thinking about these things for a couple of days, I came into the conclusion that I just need to do what the Lord wanted me to do. Sometimes, as someone who delivers the Word we may get too caught up in desiring to be “liked by our audience,” and this maybe from your desire for them to understand what you are sharing. But in reality, if you understand that this is the work of the Lord and not you, you can only do so much. The primary goal is  not to be liked by your audience but handle the Word of God with care that you share the Word as is and not twisting it to be “liked” by your audience. Some may accept it and some may not, your responsibility though is to be faithful to God’s word.

I was scheduled to speak at 4:30pm in the afternoon and I arrived before 4pm. I usually want to be early to setup my PowerPoint, get a feeling of the environment and pray. I was assisted to the multi-purpose hall and was shocked to see how it was setup. I saw bibles and song guides in chairs. Then I realized; this is an organization that supported the spiritual well-being of their employees; a corporation that I was blessed to be speaking to. Around 200 employees were expected to come and as they went in, I saw the room being filled slowly. I gave my talk and even had a short Q&A session in the ending. After the talk was over, I was just blessed to realize that this was one of the talks that I felt I was able to engage the audience and  calmly deliver the Word. I was just very thankful to the Lord for the opportunity He has given and all glory should only belong to Him. I was  very nervous before the talk but as it started I know in my heart God was the one who empowered me to deliver a message that He has laid down in my heart.

M.Y. SanI know this is just the start of a wonderful journey for me. My next speaking engagement for this company is on June 24th for the second message of this series. I don’t have pictures to show because nobody was there to take them. Of course, it would be awkward for me to take a selfie in front of everyone just as a remembrance. Hehe. All I can share is this picture of the front of their building and the free cookies that they gave me.

Thank you M.Y. San for the privilege of speaking in your company.

 

Why I Write

Why I WriteIt’s been a while since I wrote anything in my blog. I hate it when I try to start my entry this way. Looking back in some of my entries, it has always been a subtle excuse – I’m just too busy to write. I was never fond of writing. I wrote in one of the articles that English was the subject I always had a lowest score. I love math and English is totally the opposite of what I feel about it.

But for the past two years, writing has been a part of my system. When I say writing, I don’t necessarily mean writing for my blog only. For the past few months I have written a lot and these things that I have written was mostly for my preaching and speaking sessions. Regarding my blog though it has been weeks since I wrote anything.

God has somehow always tried to get my attention again to write. Maybe that’s something He really wants me to do. One thing is clear to me though. It has been a good experience for me to journal everything the Lord is doing in my life and document it. That’s why I do this.

Despite my lack of confidence in my writing, I do this to document the Lord’s faithfulness in my life. I don’t know if you’ve experienced it as well, but when things go well in your life or even when things go bad you suddenly forget who the Lord is.

Last Saturday in our breakout session we talked about mementos or having something personal that would help you remember what the Lord has done. For me, it’s my blog. During that moment, I started to think and ask myself “but have I written anything lately?” Simple answer “no.” This made me realize I need to write again. Even John Piper’s lastest blog entry also challenged me to start reflecting and writing again.

I wrote a lot of experiences here.  Some garnered a lot of views and some didn’t. My entry about my B1G8 Retreat Experience during 2012 has the most number of views and my entries about the last B1G South True Life Retreat have been a good article about what God has done during that time. When I wrote down my retrospect entries, it was a tough one. It took me a couple of month before I was able to complete writing four entries about the change in me, my dgroup, leading the worship team and my experiences when B1G South was just starting. Whenever I read those entries again I just marvel at what the Lord has done.

I’m writing this article as another starting point; a reminder to myself to start writing again. I am not the best writer out there. Some may not even again to what I will write. In the end, I do this to just glorify the Lord and remember the goodness of his deeds and grace

 

Psalm 77:11

11 I shall remember the deeds of the Lord;
Surely I will remember Your wonders of old.

 

Through this blog, I want to bless my readers. My entries aim is only to bring glory to the Lord. This is why I write. I write this entry to let you know that maybe (just maybe) when I begin to slow down in my writing you can drop me a note and remind me why I need to do this. I know I need to make time and your encouragement will greatly help. You may have other ways to remind yourself about the Lord’s faithfulness, just drop a comment below and I want to hear from you. God bless!

Moving On Chronicles – Part 2

How to Move On

Things are just going by so fast and I know I have been so busy these past months that I haven’t been able to write an entry. I know I promise I would continue my moving on series and I feel it’s just appropriate to launch this new entry during Valentines.

Today is also known as single-awareness day and I hope that whatever you are planning to do today, It is something that will be glorifying to the Lord and will reflect His love for us. But if you’re not planning to do anything tonight, then just read along and let me share with you how the Lord has really guided me on moving on from a failed relationship.

I wrote in the first part of my series that I was surprised but happy to know that my past girlfriend was already in a relationship. We’ve known each other for more than 10 years and a lot was really expected from us. We broke up November 2011 (I can’t honestly remember the exact date) and you can just imagine the kind of pain that we both felt. We were even planning to get married May 2012 but somehow we both knew that it was just not meant to be. To answer how I was able to “feel” that it was not meant to be will require another entry. But for now, I just want to briefly walk you through how I was able to move on. Honestly, whenever I look back, I can only say one thing – I was only able to recover through the grace of God. As cliché as it may sound, I know the Lord is the only reason why I was able to move on. Yes, it took time and there are certain principles I want to share but I cannot hide the fact that the Lord played a big part in this.

If you are coming from a recent break up, I hope these three principles will help you how to move on after a break up.

1. Spend time with the Lord – Pray

First of all, I hope that your break up was mutual and free of bitterness and anger. If you are harbouring these types of emotions, you really need to deal with it with the Lord. There can be a lot of reasons why you guys broke up. I may not be able to list down all the possible reasons but I know somehow, deep inside you know why. The first step is really just coming to the Lord in prayer. Whatever you are feeling, whatever you are going through, don’t be afraid to approach the Lord and allow Him to comfort you. If you have questions regarding what happened, then ask Him. You’ll be surprised to know that the Lord will answer you. But be ready because you may not like what the answer would be.

I cannot count how many times I have approached the Lord in prayer broken hearted, in pain and depressed. These were moments when I felt so close to the Lord and so close to His heart. Sometimes I feel as if all my tears are being collected to someday show me that indeed my pain was always heard and felt.  And that the Lord will deliver someday. Take hold of Psalm 34:18.

The Lord is near to the brokenhearted
And saves those who are crushed in spirit.

In your brokenness, approach the Lord and just be honest about what you feel. He wants to hear from you and give you comfort, that someday you will be given the courage to able to comfort others as well. Just like what I am hoping to do in this entry.

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction so that we will be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God - 2 Corinthians 1:3-5

2. Separate yourself from the other person completely

When we broke up, we never communicated again. I know that it may sound harsh but I believe this move really helped fast track the process. Don’t get me wrong, I have no anger towards her when we broke up. I believe it was mutual that’s why it is important to consider the first point above everything else. If you can totally cut off the communication, the better. Try removing everything that reminds you of the past. If you need to unfriend the person – then do it. Some of your friends may react and disagree with your decision, but you need to help yourself this time and not be focused on their opinions. Because if you haven’t really separated yourself from the person, there’s the danger that you will always want to continue to be part of his or her life. You’ll always want to know everything that is happening to him or her. This will not help you move on because it will just create a fantasy world where you feel you are still connected and in touch. You need to face reality. You need to be strong to move on.

3. Surround yourself with people

This is one of the best advices I have heard because you will feel really lonely once you go through a break up. There will always be that part of you that will feel you’ve lost something. The best way to counter this emotion is to surround yourself with people, but please take note that you are to surround yourself with the right group of people. Surround yourself with people who will draw you closer to the Lord. Look for people who will encourage you and be there for you. Spend time with them in gatherings or fellowship in church. Don’t go to parties or clubs to entertain yourself and try to fill the emptiness that you feel inside. After the parties, you will just go home and start to feel that emptiness again. This is why it’s important that you surround yourself with people who love the Lord and will draw you closer to the Lord. Because the Lord is the only person who can fill the void that you are feeling. Allow God’s love to fill you and restore you. Allow God to be your one and only love. You need people to help you focus on that truth during this stage in your life.

Going through a break up is really not an easy process. Again, only through the grace of God will the process be an amazing experience. I honestly cannot assure that these three principles is the sure formula to move on. But if there was one thing I can assure you, it’s this. If you take each step at a time with the Lord, it is possible to move on. The Lord wants to fill the void that you are feeling and he wants to fill it with His love.

Are you going through the moving on process right now? I would love to hear from you and maybe even give some advice. Happy Valentine’s Day.

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