Its been three years

Its been three years. I’ve been involved in different ministries before but I have never been as immersed as I am right now in a church ministry.

Its been three years…

Its been three years since I started serving in the singles ministry of CCF Alabang.

I remember the first year we re-launched the singles ministry and gave it the name B1G South. Why B1G South? Well, we just wanted to align with the name of the singles ministry in CCF Center, which was B1G, and we just want to be distinguished as the B1G ministry in the South, therefore the name B1G South.

The first year was exciting! There were too many things to expect and everyone looked hopeful about what the Lord can do. It was a time where everyone was on fire to serve. But as I have realized through the past three years, it’s not how you start – it’s how to you end and remain faithful.

True enough as the months and years passed by, slowly you’ll observe who are really those who are passionate about serving the Lord and continuing to run despite so many oppositions.

There were leaders who have said their goodbyes and I will forever be grateful for their heart of service. But there are those who have never said their goodbyes and just left. It’s sad. I hope everyone can give the same passion in serving God just like how it was when the ministry was starting.

crossroadBut the effect of time, failures, frustrations, disappointments, and a lot of other things can really leave a leader tired and worn out. At that time where he or she is at the crossroads of life, a decision should be made. Do you stay or do you go? Do you quit or do you continue to hope and run the marathon? By God’s grace, for the past three years I have chosen to continue to run, and have been trying to run well.

Was there a time where I wanted to throw the towel and quit? I would be lying if I said no. But what made me continue? What made me not quit? Honestly, I could not think of one reason alone, because there’s too many.

I love God too much to quit and exit saying “I quit because I don’t trust You, Lord.” I love the people that God has called me to serve that I cannot abandon my post until such time that I am assigned to another. I don’t want to look back and think what could have been. I want to look back and say I gave it my all – I tried to run the race as faithfully as I can. I want to continue putting my hope in God that I know he will always be faithful and true. I know my God is greater when I am not.

Its been three years…

I haven’t been perfect and there were times I haven’t been faithful to what the Lord wants me to do. But one thing will always remain the same. Throughout those years, the Lord has always been faithful.

My discipler asked us to write our faith monuments. Those times where you saw the Lord’s faithfulness in your life. As flawed individuals, we are very prone to forget. We can easily forget who the Lord is, and what he has done. And these faith monuments should be a reminder to you. When things get rough and you feel like quitting – don’t. Remember who the Lord is, He is faithful. Remember what the Lord has done, He has always been faithful.

This is one of my faith monuments. Throughout those three years, the Lord has been faithful. When he called me to start leading the ministry, I felt so inadequate. I had so many questions in my mind. I had so many fears inside.

I felt like Moses, saying to God “Me, Lord? Are you serious?” “I’m not even capable of preaching yet.” “I don’t know if I am eloquent enough.”

Exodus 4:10 – Then Moses said to the Lord, “Please, Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither recently nor in time past, nor since You have spoken to Your servant; for I am slow of speech and slow of tongue.”

 

I felt like Jeremiah, saying to the Lord “I’m so young Lord, do you really want me to lead people who might be older than me”

Jeremiah 1:6-7 – 6 Then I said, “Alas, Lord God! Behold, I do not know how to speak, because I am a youth.” 7 But the Lord said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am a youth,’ because everywhere I send you, you shall go, and all that I command you, you shall speak.

 

But I felt like Isaiah, saying to God “Here I am. Send me!

There was a conflict inside me, I was scared and felt so inadequate but I felt that this is really what he wants for me. The moment that I reject it and run away from it, I know dissatisfaction will just hunt me. So I said yes to the call and even went full-time after a couple of months.

Its been a year, since I started leading the B1GSouth ministry. Its been three years, since I served in this ministry. It has only been a year since I took over the role as the over all leader and being a leader is not an easy role. But to see lives get changed, all for the glory of God is priceless.

Its been three years…

I will forever be grateful to the one who has called me despite my unworthiness. I will forever serve the One who gave it all. I will forever sing praises to His name; giving Him always the glory He deserves.

Happy third anniversary B1G South. All glory to God alone!

B1G South 3rd Anniv

 

Time is Not Enough even for a Full-time Worker

It’s already going to be a month since I started working full-time in church. And I still can’t believe, or it just haven’t sunk in my mind yet. The environment is not new to me. The people that I’m working with is still the same. So it really doesn’t feel much has changed.

I remember it was more than four years ago that I entertained the idea of going full-time. There were lots of moments where I prayed and sought God’s direction. Whenever He would tell me it was not time yet, I would just lift up my desire again to Him and learn to trust His way. It’s still not clear to me why he wanted me to wait for more than four years, but I know, in time, He will show it to me.

The past couple of weeks has been hectic for me and I feel I’m slowly adjusting. I’m enjoying my work and feeling satisfaction in what I am doing. There is one major realization for me – time is not enough!

Time is not enoughI know what you’re probably thinking. You’re probably saying that this is not something new. But let me explain to you where I am coming from. Having worked in the corporate world for the past six years, I have always believed in the idea that I will have more time to ministry work when I go full-time. It was hard for me to balance my time when I was still working and other demands in the ministry. It was usually fulfilling, but I have to be honest, there were moments where I just want to throw the towel and accept the fact that I can’t handle all of these things. I don’t know how I was able to handle balancing it for more than two years and I know that it is really only through the grace of God that I was able to manage it. But now that I am working full-time, this idea that I will now have more time is still not happening.

This is what I have learned and I want to share this nugget of wisdom to those who maybe desiring to go full-time, thinking they will have more time to do ministry. Yes, I totally enjoy my work. Yes, there is no satisfaction for me than serving the Lord full-time. Yes, I can totally say that I am able to focus all my efforts right now in the ministry and not be swept away by other concerns in my work. But in all these things, still not enough time to do everything.

That’s why it’s important that even if you are not working full-time yet that you know how to manage your time. That you know how to balance your priorities and learn how to balance when to do work in your company, and when to do the work in your ministry. Time will still fly by very fast and that will not change even if you’re working full-time. There will still be other demands in your life. But if you’ve learned to manage your time already, then you’ll be able to manage your time as well when you’re working passionately for the ministry God has entrusted you. Meaning you’ll be able to balance your time with your family, friends, Dgroup and other personal matters you want to attend to.

Do not go full-time just because you have been convinced that this might give you more time to do the work of the Lord. Wherever you are and whatever you are doing, learn proper time management first. And then when the time is right, I know the Lord will call you to serve Him full-time.

This is my desire as I progress in my blog. I want to write more about my experiences and learnings as I serve God full-time in the ministry. I want to share what I have learned in this journey and even the mistakes I might commit in the future. In all these things, I just want to help people have a good picture of what it would be like to go full-time serving the Lord and hopefully, if this is something that Lord has called you to do as well that you may take that step of faith and follow his leading.

I hope I’ll be able to write more entries in the future because time doesn’t seem to be enough. But if there is no new entry, just take the time to read my other articles and let me know what you think about them. God bless you!

This is it

It took years before I finally made this choice. It wasn’t easy. It was a series of events that lead me finally to decide this is what I have to do. I’m going to write how it all came together but not for now. This will take time and a lot of effort remembering each moment – some of which are still fresh in my mind.

I hope you’re ready to read that long story. For now, I just want to savor this moment that it is really finally happening. I will now work full-time in the church.

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It’s a big responsibility. I feel it’s even bigger than the past positions I have been entrusted with in the corporate world. But the Lord has always been reassuring me that He is with me each step of the way.

I hope you’ll always remember me in your prayers. I’ll be writing again soon, and hopefully that will be my first entry as a full-time worker in our church.

Lots of changes will happen. Lots of exciting possibilities await.

I’m writing it all down to help those who want to go full-time understand what they will experience and how they will be able to confirm this calling in their life. Some will be able to relate to me while some may not. We all have a role to play in building up the church. Mine is shepherding the ministry that He has entrusted to me – the B1G South Ministry.

I hope you connect with me and follow my post. It will be a wonderful journey for me and I want to share it with you.

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