Before going to church my mom asked this question, “Marc, magilang taon ka na?” If you would translate it in English, it’s my mom asking how old I will be in anticipation of my birthday in the next couple of days. As of the moment, I can still confidently answer that question since I’m technically still in my late 20s. Hehe. I’ll leave it you, my dear readers, to guess how old I am.
But what really hit me hard was not a reflection of how old I will be in the next couple of days, but what my mom asked after. She asked me where do I guess I will be if I haven’t gone full-time in the ministry and have continued in my corporate job before.
That made me think.
Looking back in my corporate stint, I know by this time I should have risen above the corporate ladder since I became a manager at a young age. In every promotion that I got, I knew that God’s hand was in my life and career. I enjoyed what I was doing, but despite the position and a good salary to enjoy, I know deep within my heart this is not what I’m supposed to do.
And so, that started our discussion in the car about the “what ifs” in life. Actually it was just dad who did most of the talking about his “what ifs”.
The truth is this. Haven’t we all at one point in our lives thought about our “what ifs”?
- What if I took that other job?
- What if I didn’t break up with my boyfriend or girlfriend?
- What if I took the opportunity to work outside of the Philippines?
- What if I decided to take the other path instead?
There are two views in your “what ifs.” It can be a look into the future. For example, what if I decide to transfer work – what salary would I get, what will be my work schedule, who will be my friends, etc. It’s thinking about the possibilities with a future decision or direction in your life.
But the “what ifs” that I’m pertaining is not looking at the future. It’s looking at the past. And it’s answering this general question, that you can play in your mind using different situations – “what if I decided differently?” For example, where would I be right now if I didn’t breakup with my girlfriend before? Or where would I be right now if I stayed in my previous company and never transferred work? What if I decided differently?
We’re consistently faced with a decision in life. When you wake up, you are already facing a decision. What will you do? Will you brush your teeth? Will you eat first? Or get back to sleep?
Life is full of decisions.
But there are few major decisions, that we really need to take the time to think about. Decisions that will alter the course of our life.
We’re coming from a new year where we might be facing major decisions in life. In reality, we really do not know what will happen. Life is so full of uncertainties. We will face lots of decisions in life.
But the important thing is this – love the Lord and keep His commandments. One truth will always remain certain – God is faithful to those who love Him and keep His commandments
Deuteronomy 7:9 – Know therefore that the Lord your God, He is God, the faithful God, who keeps His covenant and His lovingkindness to a thousandth generation with those who love Him and keep His commandments;
That’s why even though I know I gave up a lot to pursue serving Him and His people, and there’s so much uncertainty in life, I know He will always be faithful. I can always try to play the “what if” game, but I know as well that in all those years He has remained true in guiding me where I should be. All the while I thought I was really built for the corporate world, but there was a bigger plan for me that I’m still venturing through.
We can come in (?) 2015 with an expectant heart. That no matter the situation. No matter the time. No matter the day. No matter the year. God is faithful.
Our God will never change. He will always be true to who He is and it says in Psalms 86:15
“But you, O Lord, are a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness.”
What is vital is that you know who your God is. That He is faithful. He is merciful and gracious. He is slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness.
May this new year be a great journey with you and the Lord. I pray that we would continue to walk humbly in His ways, love Him dearly and obey His commandments. I would love to hear how you would want this new year to unfold. Maybe you can please leave a comment below.