Its been three years

Its been three years. I’ve been involved in different ministries before but I have never been as immersed as I am right now in a church ministry.

Its been three years…

Its been three years since I started serving in the singles ministry of CCF Alabang.

I remember the first year we re-launched the singles ministry and gave it the name B1G South. Why B1G South? Well, we just wanted to align with the name of the singles ministry in CCF Center, which was B1G, and we just want to be distinguished as the B1G ministry in the South, therefore the name B1G South.

The first year was exciting! There were too many things to expect and everyone looked hopeful about what the Lord can do. It was a time where everyone was on fire to serve. But as I have realized through the past three years, it’s not how you start – it’s how to you end and remain faithful.

True enough as the months and years passed by, slowly you’ll observe who are really those who are passionate about serving the Lord and continuing to run despite so many oppositions.

There were leaders who have said their goodbyes and I will forever be grateful for their heart of service. But there are those who have never said their goodbyes and just left. It’s sad. I hope everyone can give the same passion in serving God just like how it was when the ministry was starting.

crossroadBut the effect of time, failures, frustrations, disappointments, and a lot of other things can really leave a leader tired and worn out. At that time where he or she is at the crossroads of life, a decision should be made. Do you stay or do you go? Do you quit or do you continue to hope and run the marathon? By God’s grace, for the past three years I have chosen to continue to run, and have been trying to run well.

Was there a time where I wanted to throw the towel and quit? I would be lying if I said no. But what made me continue? What made me not quit? Honestly, I could not think of one reason alone, because there’s too many.

I love God too much to quit and exit saying “I quit because I don’t trust You, Lord.” I love the people that God has called me to serve that I cannot abandon my post until such time that I am assigned to another. I don’t want to look back and think what could have been. I want to look back and say I gave it my all – I tried to run the race as faithfully as I can. I want to continue putting my hope in God that I know he will always be faithful and true. I know my God is greater when I am not.

Its been three years…

I haven’t been perfect and there were times I haven’t been faithful to what the Lord wants me to do. But one thing will always remain the same. Throughout those years, the Lord has always been faithful.

My discipler asked us to write our faith monuments. Those times where you saw the Lord’s faithfulness in your life. As flawed individuals, we are very prone to forget. We can easily forget who the Lord is, and what he has done. And these faith monuments should be a reminder to you. When things get rough and you feel like quitting – don’t. Remember who the Lord is, He is faithful. Remember what the Lord has done, He has always been faithful.

This is one of my faith monuments. Throughout those three years, the Lord has been faithful. When he called me to start leading the ministry, I felt so inadequate. I had so many questions in my mind. I had so many fears inside.

I felt like Moses, saying to God “Me, Lord? Are you serious?” “I’m not even capable of preaching yet.” “I don’t know if I am eloquent enough.”

Exodus 4:10 – Then Moses said to the Lord, “Please, Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither recently nor in time past, nor since You have spoken to Your servant; for I am slow of speech and slow of tongue.”

 

I felt like Jeremiah, saying to the Lord “I’m so young Lord, do you really want me to lead people who might be older than me”

Jeremiah 1:6-7 – 6 Then I said, “Alas, Lord God! Behold, I do not know how to speak, because I am a youth.” 7 But the Lord said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am a youth,’ because everywhere I send you, you shall go, and all that I command you, you shall speak.

 

But I felt like Isaiah, saying to God “Here I am. Send me!

There was a conflict inside me, I was scared and felt so inadequate but I felt that this is really what he wants for me. The moment that I reject it and run away from it, I know dissatisfaction will just hunt me. So I said yes to the call and even went full-time after a couple of months.

Its been a year, since I started leading the B1GSouth ministry. Its been three years, since I served in this ministry. It has only been a year since I took over the role as the over all leader and being a leader is not an easy role. But to see lives get changed, all for the glory of God is priceless.

Its been three years…

I will forever be grateful to the one who has called me despite my unworthiness. I will forever serve the One who gave it all. I will forever sing praises to His name; giving Him always the glory He deserves.

Happy third anniversary B1G South. All glory to God alone!

B1G South 3rd Anniv

 

Excited to Start Planning for Next Year

We’ll be leaving in a couple of hours, headed to Mt. Makiling Re-creation center. It’s the time of the year when we plan for the upcoming year. I’m really excited about our planning sessions for 2015. It has always been part of my system and was trained more when I started working in the corporate world. Of course, other than planning implementation is also important, but for now, the focus is preparing for the great task ahead next year.

This is all God’s work. As far as I am concerned, it’s His plan and not ours. We just move according to the direction that He wants us to take. But how do you know His direction? How do you make the plans? I’m entering our planning sessions with a lot of ideas in mind. Things that I believe the Lord has laid down in my heart. How do I know if it’s truly from Him? To be honest, you don’t really know. You can’t really claim 100% or worse, 110% that this was from God.

That’s why it’s important first that you maintain a close walk with God. That you never neglect your time with Him in prayer and in reading His word. As you dwell in His presence, walk closely with Him and obey His general commands towards all mankind – you will know what He wants. You will make decisions close to His heart. You will plan things according to what He wants because you are so intimate with Him and know what He wants you to do. This is all still through faith and according to the principles of His written word.

Second, as you make decisions you need to surround yourself with Godly people who maintain a close walk with God as well. I have only been a ministry head for 6 months and I have already learned that you cannot make decisions on your own. There will be times that you will be pressured and you need to decide on the spot, but if you have the liberty of time, do not rush your decisions. Take the time in prayer about it and consult other people. Talk to your core leaders about it. Share your concern to your mentor or to someone who disciples you. Then, collectively think about their inputs and make a decision. You will be amazed when you realize that there are certain areas that you haven’t thought about and getting others’ input will help you see it in a different perspective.

I’m really excited to start planning and seek the Lord during this time. All I want to follow what He wants and honor Him. In the end, you need to take it to heart that you can plan, but in the end, it is the Lord’s will that prevails.

B1G South True Life Retreat – Day 3

Note from the author: This is part of my daily account of what happened in the True Life Retreat last November 29 to December 1.

If you haven’t been able to read what I have been writing the past days, you might want to check out what I wrote for Day 1 and Day 2.This is now my last entry as I try to wrap up everything that has happened in the retreat. I slept at around 2am and really pushed myself to wake up at 6am. Now 4 hours of sleep is really not that bad but I have already exhausted so much energy the past days that 8 hours of complete sleep would have been better. But still, I wanted to push myself to wake up early and play basketball. I guess my retreat experience wouldn’t be complete without playing my favourite sport. But I am not playing just for the fun of it – I had a purpose for inviting people to join us to play at 6am in morning. I see basketball as a good way to break the ice and get to know people. Basketball was one of the reasons I got to know people when I was attending youth camps in the past. It’s a good avenue for people to connect and be comfortable with one another. I also see it as a way to reach out to others. Through this sport, others would see us as normal. That we are not just a group who loves the Lord and serves Him, but we also know how to play and have fun. I played one good game then had breakfast after.

After breakfast, I took a bath and immediately went to the snack bar to just think. We had our volunteers huddle there and I briefed them with everything that was going to happen for the day. All Module 1 participants were asked to stay in the main hall for the baptism message, while all Module 2 participants went on to participate in the different workshops. After the message and workshops, everyone was encouraged to attend Baptism, either to be baptized or to witness the event. I came early to the pool to dip my feet in the cold water and just pray. Somehow I was already imagining what was going to happen and with thankfulness in my heart, I just praised God for allowing me to be part of His work. There were three pairs that handled the baptism and I was part of that. Whenever someone walked towards us to be baptized, I could see how overwhelmed they were. Aside from the fact that the water was really cold, I can feel them shiver with the thought that this is it – this is the day that they would publicly declare their commitment to their God. I welcomed each individual that came to us. I asked for their names, and hoped that with my tone and smile, they would be able to relax a bit. Whenever I would ask the three questions, I would look intently in their eyes. From their eyes you’ll see what was inside their hearts. Some would respond with an outstanding “Yes!” while some would respond softy, but in their eyes and tone, you would see that it truly came from their heart. I was overwhelmed with joy as I witnessed fellow believers get baptized. I don’t know if people noticed it, but I was already coming to the point of breaking into tears because of immense joy. There were times I would just wash my face with pool water to hide my emotion and cover my tears. Hehe.

True Life Baptism

When the baptism activity was over, everyone washed up and packed their things before having lunch. When I got to the mess hall, they asked if we were going to proceed with the Top Show that the general manager of the RRC suggested. This was really not part of the program and I was hesitant to allow it since it means we will have to go beyond schedule. I talked to Mrs.Mauk and as we discussed the details, it was already pretty clear that there is no way of stopping the top show from happening. The only impression I really got it was “You will do the top show” and not “I hope we can do the top show.” J I gave in and announced to the coordinators that there was going to be a change in the schedule. After the top show, we had the closing program and then it was time to head home.

I won’t make this long anymore. As Day 3 came to a close, I just felt thankful that I was able to witness His work. I’m also very grateful that He sustained me for the past months we were planning and preparing for this retreat. I wanted to take a deep breath and comfort myself by thinking – “It’s over, you did the best that you can and now, you just need to learn from the things that still needs improvement.” But as I recall everything that happened, I realize that it’s not completely over. That burden in my heart just got bigger. I keep hearing my heart saying – “We need to catch them. We need to catch them. We need to catch them.” It’s hard to be contented by the retreat. The cry of my heart is further motivating me to ensure that the participants continue to grow in their love for the Lord. This retreat is not just an experience but the start of their renewed life with Jesus. That’s why we need to actively pursue discipleship. The 3 day retreat experience may seem like an emotional high for everyone, but as we go on with the daily battles of life – reality will always strike us – there will be temptations left and right and our flesh will desire the things of this world again. That’s why we need to stay connected to one another. We need to continually encourage one another to walk in the way of the Lord. We need to catch everyone and intentionally disciple. This is my prayer for all breakout group leaders. That they would continually reach out to those who were part of their group. And in that process, build a relationship where they can invite them to attend bible studies or our Singles Connect services. This way, we can ensure that through discipleship, we’ll be able to guide them in their journey to get to know the Lord.

It’s somehow hard for me to share this burden in my heart because I know a lot of people want to rest. I want to rest as well. But I am just sharing a piece of my heart that cannot remain silent. It is just my desire that Jesus will be shared to everyone. That we will all grow together in our love for the Lord as we become active in discipleship and ministry. And I just want to share, as I was prayerfully thinking and talking to God, He has been somehow showing me another vision. It’s still blurry as of moment but this is what I know – The best is yet to come! I do not know what that means but I just have a feeling it’s going to be big and I want to be part of it. I want to see His name be glorified. I want His name to be praised. So won’t you join us? Can I invite you to be part of this ministry which desires to see a movement of singles’ living out transformed lives to the fullest for the glory of God? We have service every Saturday at 6pm at the 3rd floor of CCF Alabang. I would love to see you attend and also be part of a discipleship group. If you have any questions, just drop me a comment below or connect with me through Facebook. I’m always excited to hear from you.

Tree House B1G Shot

I just want to take this time to thank each and every one who helped in the True Life Singles retreat. From the cluster heads, volunteers, breakout group leaders, program team, worship team, prayer team, marketing team, curriculum team and many more – you are all deeply appreciated. I might not have been able to personally say thank you, but know that your ultimate blessing is with Christ. I look forward to working with you guys again. Let us not grow weary of doing good for in due time, we shall reap what we have sown. This is a video that I feel summarizes what I learned about God. Hope you guys like it. I love you all. Lablab.  Hehe.

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