Time is Not Enough even for a Full-time Worker

It’s already going to be a month since I started working full-time in church. And I still can’t believe, or it just haven’t sunk in my mind yet. The environment is not new to me. The people that I’m working with is still the same. So it really doesn’t feel much has changed.

I remember it was more than four years ago that I entertained the idea of going full-time. There were lots of moments where I prayed and sought God’s direction. Whenever He would tell me it was not time yet, I would just lift up my desire again to Him and learn to trust His way. It’s still not clear to me why he wanted me to wait for more than four years, but I know, in time, He will show it to me.

The past couple of weeks has been hectic for me and I feel I’m slowly adjusting. I’m enjoying my work and feeling satisfaction in what I am doing. There is one major realization for me – time is not enough!

Time is not enoughI know what you’re probably thinking. You’re probably saying that this is not something new. But let me explain to you where I am coming from. Having worked in the corporate world for the past six years, I have always believed in the idea that I will have more time to ministry work when I go full-time. It was hard for me to balance my time when I was still working and other demands in the ministry. It was usually fulfilling, but I have to be honest, there were moments where I just want to throw the towel and accept the fact that I can’t handle all of these things. I don’t know how I was able to handle balancing it for more than two years and I know that it is really only through the grace of God that I was able to manage it. But now that I am working full-time, this idea that I will now have more time is still not happening.

This is what I have learned and I want to share this nugget of wisdom to those who maybe desiring to go full-time, thinking they will have more time to do ministry. Yes, I totally enjoy my work. Yes, there is no satisfaction for me than serving the Lord full-time. Yes, I can totally say that I am able to focus all my efforts right now in the ministry and not be swept away by other concerns in my work. But in all these things, still not enough time to do everything.

That’s why it’s important that even if you are not working full-time yet that you know how to manage your time. That you know how to balance your priorities and learn how to balance when to do work in your company, and when to do the work in your ministry. Time will still fly by very fast and that will not change even if you’re working full-time. There will still be other demands in your life. But if you’ve learned to manage your time already, then you’ll be able to manage your time as well when you’re working passionately for the ministry God has entrusted you. Meaning you’ll be able to balance your time with your family, friends, Dgroup and other personal matters you want to attend to.

Do not go full-time just because you have been convinced that this might give you more time to do the work of the Lord. Wherever you are and whatever you are doing, learn proper time management first. And then when the time is right, I know the Lord will call you to serve Him full-time.

This is my desire as I progress in my blog. I want to write more about my experiences and learnings as I serve God full-time in the ministry. I want to share what I have learned in this journey and even the mistakes I might commit in the future. In all these things, I just want to help people have a good picture of what it would be like to go full-time serving the Lord and hopefully, if this is something that Lord has called you to do as well that you may take that step of faith and follow his leading.

I hope I’ll be able to write more entries in the future because time doesn’t seem to be enough. But if there is no new entry, just take the time to read my other articles and let me know what you think about them. God bless you!

This is it

It took years before I finally made this choice. It wasn’t easy. It was a series of events that lead me finally to decide this is what I have to do. I’m going to write how it all came together but not for now. This will take time and a lot of effort remembering each moment – some of which are still fresh in my mind.

I hope you’re ready to read that long story. For now, I just want to savor this moment that it is really finally happening. I will now work full-time in the church.

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It’s a big responsibility. I feel it’s even bigger than the past positions I have been entrusted with in the corporate world. But the Lord has always been reassuring me that He is with me each step of the way.

I hope you’ll always remember me in your prayers. I’ll be writing again soon, and hopefully that will be my first entry as a full-time worker in our church.

Lots of changes will happen. Lots of exciting possibilities await.

I’m writing it all down to help those who want to go full-time understand what they will experience and how they will be able to confirm this calling in their life. Some will be able to relate to me while some may not. We all have a role to play in building up the church. Mine is shepherding the ministry that He has entrusted to me – the B1G South Ministry.

I hope you connect with me and follow my post. It will be a wonderful journey for me and I want to share it with you.

My Reflection on Psalm 63

Your unfailing love is better than life itself; how I praise you! Psalm 63:3

Psalm 63

A psalm of David, regarding a time when David was in the wilderness of Judah.

O God, you are my God;
    I earnestly search for you.
My soul thirsts for you;
    my whole body longs for you
in this parched and weary land
    where there is no water.
I have seen you in your sanctuary
    and gazed upon your power and glory.
Your unfailing love is better than life itself;
    how I praise you!
I will praise you as long as I live,
    lifting up my hands to you in prayer.
You satisfy me more than the richest feast.
    I will praise you with songs of joy.

I lie awake thinking of you,
    meditating on you through the night.
Because you are my helper,
    I sing for joy in the shadow of your wings.
I cling to you;
    your strong right hand holds me securely.

But those plotting to destroy me will come to ruin.
    They will go down into the depths of the earth.
10 They will die by the sword
    and become the food of jackals.
11 But the king will rejoice in God.
    All who swear to tell the truth will praise him,
    while liars will be silenced.

David had that longing that longing to be with his God. He first acknowledges God when he said “you are my God.” He acknowledges he only has one God and that his Lord is his personal God. Above all else, nothing can compare to Him. He has gazed and seen Him in His sanctuary. And with what He has behold, David is ultimately asking again for him to see the Lord’s power and glory. Such is a desire that we need to cultivate in our lives. Do you desire the same right now? Or are you wondering aimlessly in life without the pursuit of God?

To be able to say that your love is better than life means that only your love will satisfy me. Not the riches of this world. Not the good things I have in this world. Only your love. Your love is better than the good things in life or life itself, if it was good to me.  Because of your love, I am satisfied more that than greatest party or feast that there will ever be. Because of your love for me, I can take my refuge in the shadow of your wings since you are there to help me. Because of your love for me, I can cling on to you with my dear life and I cling you to your strong hand which holds me securely. All this things as I realize will make me praise you with songs of great gladness and joy. Will you be able to say with deep conviction in your heart that your love is better than life?

Do you think during times of adversity you will desire God the way David did or will you find yourself desperate for the temporal solution?

We want out immediately. We don’t want to go through the process. It’s hard. I know these are the thoughts that you have whenever you have a problem or trial. Who wouldn’t want to get out of hardship immediately?

But I know whenever these moments of trials come along our way it is there to be develop a Christ-like attitude in us. You shouldn’t desire to get you immediately. What you should desire is to learn how to be thankful despite the situation. Getting out immediately is the easy solution but there is a satisfaction in being able to cultivate discipline in your life to thank God despite your wilderness moment. I know it’s not easy but when the trials has already passed by and we are able to go through it with a thankful heart – we begin to thank God and realize that it is only because of Him that we can show this kind of response. And so, we begin to delight and pleasure in Him. John Piper said:

Satisfaction comes from God to those whose passion in life is to know him in the struggle to be like him in the world

 

My Prayer:

Lord, I thank you. I know, at times I have lost my focus and I tend to look more in my problems rather than in you. You know everything that is going through in my life right now. There are just so many things to do. I am overwhelmed at times. And at times, I just want to get out and let it be done with. I know I’m not responding well and I ask for your forgiveness. Help me to desire you God during times of adversity and not try to take control of the situation. I can only do so much, but I know you can do all things. You know that I want of these things I desire to happen and happen successfully. But I leave it all to you to work it according to your great plan and love for me. Right now, I just know that I want to be able to say what David said “Your unfailing love is better that life itself.” Thank you for your unfailing, steadfast and never changing love. Praise you alone.

How about you? What’s your thoughts on Psalm 63?

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