This is it

It took years before I finally made this choice. It wasn’t easy. It was a series of events that lead me finally to decide this is what I have to do. I’m going to write how it all came together but not for now. This will take time and a lot of effort remembering each moment – some of which are still fresh in my mind.

I hope you’re ready to read that long story. For now, I just want to savor this moment that it is really finally happening. I will now work full-time in the church.


It’s a big responsibility. I feel it’s even bigger than the past positions I have been entrusted with in the corporate world. But the Lord has always been reassuring me that He is with me each step of the way.

I hope you’ll always remember me in your prayers. I’ll be writing again soon, and hopefully that will be my first entry as a full-time worker in our church.

Lots of changes will happen. Lots of exciting possibilities await.

I’m writing it all down to help those who want to go full-time understand what they will experience and how they will be able to confirm this calling in their life. Some will be able to relate to me while some may not. We all have a role to play in building up the church. Mine is shepherding the ministry that He has entrusted to me – the B1G South Ministry.

I hope you connect with me and follow my post. It will be a wonderful journey for me and I want to share it with you.

I can never understand it

I can never understand it. At most, the best that I can understand is what I experience from other people. Although what they are giving is still flawed and imperfect. We live in an imperfect world. Everyone has the capability to love but to be able to consistently and perfectly give unconditional love, for me, seems impossible. At one point, a person can still go with his or her own selfish desire. The question is, right now, how much do we really understand God’s amazing and perfect love?

I know we’ve experience it. We have come to know God’s love through what he has done for us in the cross, or we might have experience it first hand in the blessings he has given us. I believe it’s much more than what we think we know.

Ephesians 3:18

18 And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is.19 May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.


How wide? How Long? How High? How Deep? It’s a rhetoric question that means there is no limit to it. I have fallen a lot of times, and I still see His love following me and chasing after me.

Falling Down

I’ve made a mistake and in a split second, I hear a voice speaking in my heart that He will forgive me. I wanted to run, but He was already ahead of me – not wanting me to wander from away from the truth. I can’t understand it. I can’t understand why He loves me that much. All I can do is give in and rest again in His embrace.

I want to give encouragement to you, I know life can be a series of ups and downs – sometimes, it’s mostly down. No matter what you are going through, God loves you. You might have turned your back from him. You might have failed Him. You might have sinned against Him. All I know is, He still loves you. Just come back. Come back to Him and talk to Him. He longs to be with you.

How I felt after my first speaking engagement for a company

It was almost a week ago since I spoke in a company for the first time. I remember getting a text a month ago that someone was interested in our love, sex and dating series for their office. It was exciting for me since I have always desired to start a corporate ministry. It was something that I envisioned B1G South would actively do as a movement.

I was nervous at the thought though that speaking in a company is totally a different audience than the people I usually speak to during our single’s service. I had questions in mind. How would I go with my message? How will my listeners react? Will they like me? Do I need to be as innocent as a dove and as wise as a serpent? How do I share the gospel?

While I was thinking about these things for a couple of days, I came into the conclusion that I just need to do what the Lord wanted me to do. Sometimes, as someone who delivers the Word we may get too caught up in desiring to be “liked by our audience,” and this maybe from your desire for them to understand what you are sharing. But in reality, if you understand that this is the work of the Lord and not you, you can only do so much. The primary goal is  not to be liked by your audience but handle the Word of God with care that you share the Word as is and not twisting it to be “liked” by your audience. Some may accept it and some may not, your responsibility though is to be faithful to God’s word.

I was scheduled to speak at 4:30pm in the afternoon and I arrived before 4pm. I usually want to be early to setup my PowerPoint, get a feeling of the environment and pray. I was assisted to the multi-purpose hall and was shocked to see how it was setup. I saw bibles and song guides in chairs. Then I realized; this is an organization that supported the spiritual well-being of their employees; a corporation that I was blessed to be speaking to. Around 200 employees were expected to come and as they went in, I saw the room being filled slowly. I gave my talk and even had a short Q&A session in the ending. After the talk was over, I was just blessed to realize that this was one of the talks that I felt I was able to engage the audience and  calmly deliver the Word. I was just very thankful to the Lord for the opportunity He has given and all glory should only belong to Him. I was  very nervous before the talk but as it started I know in my heart God was the one who empowered me to deliver a message that He has laid down in my heart.

M.Y. SanI know this is just the start of a wonderful journey for me. My next speaking engagement for this company is on June 24th for the second message of this series. I don’t have pictures to show because nobody was there to take them. Of course, it would be awkward for me to take a selfie in front of everyone just as a remembrance. Hehe. All I can share is this picture of the front of their building and the free cookies that they gave me.

Thank you M.Y. San for the privilege of speaking in your company.


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